nostaligic... or dreaming about things that would have hapenned if i 'd gone to IIML. Have been goin through Gaurav's blog. Actually.. going way back in his blog.. the very inception of it. And it brings back memories and also a bit of hurt, for things not done.
Its been almost four years now. I haven't felt more accomplished since or before that too. The GRE score, the IIML selection, the fellowship from USU. Seems like a dream now. How i wish i could go back to those days and take the path i had evaded. Well, never happens, i guess.
neways, one thing that keeps me going is people i see, people who are going through worser phases in life than i am rite now. And i think, damn, it could have been much worser - phew.. lucky me. hehe. I guess, the attitude is alrite to keep going - but it isn't gonna take me places i wanna b. I gotta change that. But thats chaging what i basically am, and i dont know if i want to do that. I guess i'll eventually, but its a transition i 'll not love making.
Love, is more resposibility and pain than it is fun. Is it worth it??? hmm. i dont know. I am hoping it is. I know for sure, i would be miserable alone. Or atleast, thats what i think i 'll b. neways, lets c where i am goin from here. Hope things work out. Need a job!!!!!!!!!!!