Sunday, April 01, 2018

sleep

Success as a parent and at work is one of the toughest balances to strike - if not the toughest. Basically at an approximate - you need to spare ~12 hours a day to your children (if not more - especially if you have infants/toddlers), and ~ the same at work - if you want to make a difference and maybe more if you have a commute - plus of course find time for your significant other (who is going through pretty much the same - even more so - if he/she is working) and then of course - find time to sleep. This besides everything else that needs to happen to keep going on. Now - the last time i checked, there were only 24 hours a day.

Suddenly - life becomes more of an exercise. There are those really beautiful moments - and quite a few of them - in comparison to what we had when it was just the two of us. But around these are some really tiring, sleepless, unappreciated, taxing, complicated, frenzied, disorganized, effort filled (this is going to go on.. if i don't stop now ... ) hours of the day. And this is a normal day. There are the other ones - the thought of which itself is disturbing and I would rather not discuss those. This balance seems more and more elusive and  the fear of not being able to do justice to either adds to the sleep deprivation.

It requires well coordinated teams who understand and complement each other - both at work and at home. And that is a pretty big ask. I have seen it happen though. .. which gives me the inkling of hope that one day I will find that balance. But until then. . The routine is -Sleep less. Worry more. And somehow find the time to sleep and the strength to keep going.

California Calling

Full streams and falling pride
Move on out .. Wash them past
The walls we build.. The dreams we killed

Its alright .. Its alright..
Let them burn.. Will light our way..
We 'll be great again.. We'll shine bright
Its just blood.. We'll wash it off..
Full streams and falling pride